{"id":326,"date":"2010-04-26T09:39:18","date_gmt":"2010-04-26T08:39:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/?p=326"},"modified":"2024-11-06T00:54:13","modified_gmt":"2024-11-05T23:54:13","slug":"dinledigimiz-masallar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/?p=326","title":{"rendered":"Dinledi\u011fimiz Masallar"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Hepimizin bir \u00e7ok \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc vard\u0131r hayatta. Bir \u00e7o\u011fumuz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczden beri anlat\u0131lan ve ya masal kitaplar\u0131ndan okunan, mutlu sonla biten masallarla b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck.Hepimizin bir masal\u0131 vard\u0131r. Hayalini kurdu\u011fu ve b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e uzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc. <img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-423\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"0003\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/0003-247x300.jpg\" alt=\"0003\" width=\"118\" height=\"144\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/0003-247x300.jpg 247w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/0003.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 118px) 100vw, 118px\" \/>Oysaki bu masallar\u0131`da, masal kahramanlar\u0131n\u0131 da yaratan biz insanlar de\u011filmiydik? O zaman neden bu mutlu sonlar\u0131 ya\u015fayabilmek varken ac\u0131 sonlar\u0131 se\u00e7i\u015fimiz. \u0130ster \u00f6yk\u00fc deyin, ister hayat, ister masal herkesin bir hikayesi vard\u0131r. Kimi zaman g\u00fcld\u00fcren kimi zaman a\u011flatan. Bu karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kanatlar\u0131nda u\u00e7may\u0131 ye\u011fleyenlerin de\u011fil, denizin derinliklerine cesurca dalmay\u0131 se\u00e7enlerin \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc.\u00a0 \u0130\u015fte sizler bug\u00fcn benim k\u0131sa bir \u00f6yk\u00fcm\u00fc okuyacaks\u0131n\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Bir hikaye yazd\u0131m kendime, hani \u015fu k\u00f6t\u00fc ba\u015flay\u0131p g\u00fczel biten hikayelerden. Denizin derin mavisine bakanlar\u0131n masal\u0131 de\u011fil bu, cesurca a\u015fk\u2018la ya\u015fam\u0131 kucaklayanlar\u0131n masal\u0131! B\u00fcy\u00fckada\u2018dan \u00dcsk\u00fcdardaki dede evine ta\u015f\u0131mam\u0131z\u0131n moral bozuklu\u011funu \u00fczerimden atamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Haydarpa\u015fa lisesine ise hi\u00e7 al\u0131\u015famam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Evden okula gidiyormu\u015f gibi \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn kadik\u00f6y, moda, suadiye\u2019de dola\u015f\u0131p okuldan geliyormu\u015f gibi eve d\u00f6n\u00fcyordum. Okulda yeni tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0131n\u0131f arkada\u015flar\u0131mla\u2019da anla\u015fam\u0131yordum. Anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yeni evimize, \u00e7evreme, okuluma intibak edemiyordum. Okulu b\u0131rakmaya karar vermi\u015ftim; vermesine\u2018de bunu aileme nas\u0131l a\u00e7\u0131klamal\u0131yd\u0131m diye kafa yorarken, Okuldan eve g\u00f6nderilen bir mektup her \u015feyi ortaya \u00e7\u0131kartm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Evin nazik ve \u00fczerine titrenen \u00e7ocu\u011fu olmam, <img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-large wp-image-445 alignright\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"A\u011fbim-asmal\u0131mescid\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/A\u011fbim-asmal\u0131mescid1-661x1024.jpg\" alt=\"A\u011fbim-asmal\u0131mescid\" width=\"143\" height=\"221\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/A\u011fbim-asmal\u0131mescid1-661x1024.jpg 661w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/A\u011fbim-asmal\u0131mescid1-193x300.jpg 193w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/A\u011fbim-asmal\u0131mescid1.jpg 674w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 143px) 100vw, 143px\" \/>zaten vur eli olmayan babam\u0131 sinirlendirsede \u00e7ok sakin g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcyordu o ak\u015fam. Bana neden okula gitmedi\u011fimi sordu\u011funda cevab\u0131m haz\u0131rd\u0131. Soruya soruyla cevap vermi\u015ftim. Neden ben eski okuluma gidemiyorum? Vapurla gidip gelirdim ne olurdu sanki! Madem ta\u015f\u0131nacakt\u0131n\u0131z beni neden \u0130stanbul belediye konservetuar\u0131na g\u00f6ndermediniz? Tabi ben yanl\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131ma vapurla seyyahat edemem sebep bu mu? Babam sakin sakin dinliyordu. \u0130lk okulu bitirdikten sonra M\u00fcz\u00fcsyen olan H\u00fcsn\u00fc amcam\u0131n israr\u0131 ile \u0130stanbul belediye Konservetuar\u0131n\u0131n imtahanlar\u0131na girmi\u015f, imtahan\u0131 nihari olarak ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 bir \u015fekilde kazanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. O senede Babam ve Annem \u0130stanbula vapurla gidip gelmeme r\u0131za g\u00f6stermediklerinden, Heybeli Adadaki H\u00fcseyin Rahmi G\u00fcrp\u0131nar Lisesine kayd\u0131m\u0131 yapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Ho\u015f gidebilece\u011fim ba\u015fka bir okul da yoktu o zamanlar. Sanki Heybeli adaya y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek gidiyordum. O gece pek bir \u015fey konu\u015fulmad\u0131 Babam Hadi yat yar\u0131n konu\u015furuz diyerek beni odama g\u00f6nderdi. Ertesi sabah okula gidiyormu\u015f gibi yapmam i\u00e7in bir sebep kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6\u011fleye kadar uyumu\u015ftum. Kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Annemin surat\u0131 bir kar\u0131\u015f benimle konu\u015fmuyordu. Ne kadar \u015faklabanl\u0131k yapt\u0131ysam da Annemin y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcrememi\u015ftim. Karn\u0131n a\u00e7 m\u0131 diye sormam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile. G\u00fcng\u00f6r A\u011fbim asmal\u0131 mescit&#8217;de M\u00fcz\u00fcsyenlik yap\u0131yor ve orada \u015fark\u0131c\u0131 bir bayan arkada\u015f\u0131 ile kal\u0131yordu. G\u00fcner A\u011fbim askerdeydi ve ben \u00e7ok rahatt\u0131m. G\u00fcng\u00f6r a\u011fbimin durumunu benden ba\u015fka bilen olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sus pay\u0131 olarak haftada yirmi lira har\u00e7l\u0131k verirdi bana.\u00a0 Her pazartesi eve gelirdi. Ne olduysa o ak\u015fam G\u00fcng\u00f6r a\u011fbimle beraber gelmi\u015flerdi. G\u00fcng\u00f6r a\u011fbim, Babam ve Annem gibi yufka y\u00fcrekli de\u011fildi. O bile ne olduysa benimle sakin sakin konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Okula devam edersem har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 elli liraya \u00e7\u0131kartaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 falan s\u00f6yledi. Ben okadar kararl\u0131yd\u0131m ki\u00a0 A\u011fbimin her s\u00f6yledi\u011fi bir kula\u011f\u0131mdan giriyor \u00f6tekinden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu. Sonunda A\u011fbim, Babam ve Annem bir karar vermi\u015flrdi bu karar\u0131da a\u00e7\u0131klamak G\u00fcng\u00f6r a\u011fbime kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tamam o\u011flum o zaman \u00e7al\u0131\u015facaks\u0131n dedi. Bende olur dedim. A\u011fbimin hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fi bir cevap olsa gerek\u00a0 Babama bakt\u0131 Babam\u00a0 tamam her sabah Re\u015fat amcanla gidecek ak\u015fam onunla d\u00f6neceksin. \u00d6yle yan gelip yatmak yok. Biraz \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u00a0 da okuman\u0131n k\u0131ymetini anlars\u0131n diyerek bana ceza kesti\u011fini ima etti.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Re\u015fat am\u0131ca Babam\u0131n \u00e7ocukluk arkada<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-446 alignleft\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"mahmutpasa\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/mahmutpasa-300x198.jpg\" alt=\"mahmutpasa\" width=\"240\" height=\"158\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/mahmutpasa-300x198.jpg 300w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/mahmutpasa.jpg 463w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 240px) 100vw, 240px\" \/>\u015f\u0131 kap\u0131 kom\u015fumuz,\u00a0 bir aile dostumuz. Sirkeci \u0130rfaniye \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda orlon kazak, buluz\u00a0 gibi\u00a0 \u00fcr\u00fcnleri satt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir tezgah\u0131 var. Babam ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcyse art\u0131k; k\u0131\u015f\u0131n so\u011fuk, yaz\u0131n s\u0131cak d\u0131\u015far\u0131da \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya dayanam\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek mi \u00a0b\u00f6yle bir karar ald\u0131 bilmiyorum. Ertesi sabah saat alt\u0131da Annemin sesi ile kalkt\u0131m. Re\u015fat amca saat alt\u0131 bu\u00e7ukta beni alacakt\u0131. Ve \u00f6ylede oldu Re\u015fat amca ile beraber \u00dcsk\u00fcdar vapur iskelesine kadar y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck saat yedi vapuru ile sirkeciye ge\u00e7tik oradan Re\u015fat amcan\u0131n tezgah\u0131n\u0131n oldu\u011fu yere geldik. Tezgahtaki mallar her sabah kartonlardan \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131l\u0131p\u00a0 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor ak\u015famlar\u0131 kartonlara istif edilerek yandaki d\u00fckkana b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131yordu. \u0130lk g\u00fcn Re\u015fat amca kazaklar\u0131 bul\u00fczleri tezgaha nas\u0131l dizece\u011fimi ak\u015famlar\u0131 tezgahtan nas\u0131l toplayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, kazak ve bul\u00fczleri nas\u0131l katlamam gerekti\u011fini \u00a0g\u00f6stermi\u015fti. Bundan sonraki g\u00fcnler bu i\u015fin bana ait oldu\u011funu hata yapmamam gerekti\u011fini anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Re\u015fat amcaya ka\u00e7 para kazanaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sordu\u011fumda, hem i\u015f \u00f6\u011fretece\u011fim hemde para m\u0131 istiyorsun diyerek cevaplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sorumu. Sen bir i\u015fi \u00f6\u011fren o zaman konu\u015furuz dedi. Ak\u015fam eve geldi\u011fimde b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn ayakta durmaktan bitap d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm yemek dahi yemeden yatt\u0131m uyudum. Sabahleyin saat be\u015fte\u00a0 kalkt\u0131m kendime ekmek aras\u0131 sand\u00f6vi\u00e7 yapt\u0131m\u00a0 Re\u015fat amcay\u0131 beklemeden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m evden saat alt\u0131 bu\u00e7ukta tezgah\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Mallar\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m tezgaha yerle\u015ftirdim re\u015fat amca saat sekizde geldi\u011finde iki kazak bile satm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.Re\u015fat amca\u00a0 \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n bana bak\u0131yordu. Kendisini neden beklemedi\u011fimi bile sormad\u0131 aferin dedi. Bir ay\u0131n sonunda benim pes etmeyece\u011fim anla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f Re\u015fat amcan\u0131n yan\u0131nda elli lira haftal\u0131k la ger\u00e7ekten \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Evdekiler benim pes etmemeden dolay\u0131 mutsuzlard\u0131 her f\u0131rsatta okula d\u00f6nmem i\u00e7in telkinde bulunuyorlard\u0131. Re\u015fat amca benden \u00e7ok menundu ve Babam\u0131 bir \u015fekilde ikna etmi\u015fti san\u0131r\u0131m. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc ay bitti\u011finde haftal\u0131\u011f\u0131m da artm\u0131\u015f haftada y\u00fcz lira al\u0131yordum. Bu arada \u0130rfaniye \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 Kapal\u0131 \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131 orloncular kuma\u015f\u00e7\u0131lar herkesle\u00a0 iyi ili\u015fkiler geli\u015ftirmi\u015ftim.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Ermeni bir arkada\u015f\u0131m kapal\u0131 \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131da ince belli \u00e7ay bardaklar\u0131na, tabaklar\u0131na alt\u0131n yald\u0131z \u00e7ekiyordu. Piyasaya yeni \u00e7\u0131kan bu \u00e7ay bardaklar\u0131 kap\u0131\u015f kap\u0131\u015f sat\u0131l\u0131yordu. Re\u015fat bey amcan\u0131n tezgah\u0131n\u0131n hemen yan\u0131nda iki karton koyabilece\u011fim kadar bo\u015f bir yer vard\u0131 zaten orada dikilirdik. Re\u015fat amcaya bu yeri bana verirse haftal\u0131k <img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-461\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"carsi\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/carsi-290x300.jpg\" alt=\"carsi\" width=\"174\" height=\"180\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/carsi-290x300.jpg 290w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/carsi.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 174px) 100vw, 174px\" \/>almayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledi\u011fimde hem \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f hemde sevinmi\u015fti san\u0131r\u0131m. Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sordu tezgaha bakarken Bardak sataca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledim. G\u00fcld\u00fc ve kabul etti. Her halde bir i\u015fe yaram\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Konsenye ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m yald\u0131zl\u0131 \u00e7ay barda\u011f\u0131 ve taba\u011f\u0131 bir liradan satacakt\u0131m y\u00fczde yirmisi benim olacakt\u0131. Ak\u015famdan d\u00f6rt karton alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ertesi sabah \u00f6nce orlon tezgah\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m hemen kenarda bo\u015f kartonlar\u0131n \u00fczerine bardak ve tabaklar\u0131 dizdim, gazete ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131ndan bardak sarmak i\u00e7in ka\u011f\u0131t haz\u0131rlad\u0131m. Bo\u015f bir kartona yald\u0131zl\u0131 \u00e7ay barda\u011f\u0131, taba\u011f\u0131 hediyesi bir lira batan geminin mallar\u0131 diye yazd\u0131m. Ben b\u00fct\u00fcn bu haz\u0131rl\u0131klar\u0131 yaparken bir karton mal satm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m yani elli adet. \u00d6\u011flen oldu\u011funda hi\u00e7 mal kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 elimde. Re\u015fat amca anlamas\u0131n diye mal almaya gitmedim. Telefonla verdi\u011fim sekiz karton mal sipari\u015fini, ak\u015famleyin almaya gittim. Hammalara y\u00fckledim kartonlar\u0131 orlonlar\u0131 koydu\u011fumuz d\u00fckkana b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\u00a0 Birinci g\u00fcn k\u0131rk lira kazanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m sevin\u00e7ten havalara u\u00e7uyordum. \u0130kinci g\u00fcn sabahtan saat onbe\u015fe kadar sekiz kartonuda satm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Re\u015fat amca nas\u0131l gidiyor dedi\u011finde iyi amcam yirmi otuz kazan\u0131yorum. Re\u015fat amcan\u0131n ho\u015funa gidiyordu tabi bedavaya adam \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu. B\u00f6ylelikle g\u00fcnler g\u00fcnleri kovalarken d\u00f6rt ay bardak ve orlon satm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Sadece \u00e7ay barda\u011f\u0131 ve taba\u011f\u0131ndan d\u00f6rt ayda onbe\u015f bin liradan fazla para kazanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Kimselere s\u00f6ylemeden. Ne olur ne olmaz diyerek harcamalar\u0131m\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki paray\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131 kat\u0131ndaki odamda gizlemi\u015ftim. Bu paray\u0131 kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u0131lda G\u00fcng\u00f6r A\u011fbim gecede 50 lira al\u0131yordu, Babam\u0131n maa\u015f\u0131 685 lirayd\u0131. \u00a0Paray\u0131 kazanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m kazanmas\u0131na yer konusu biraz can\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131yordu. Bir ay sonra Re\u015fat bey amcaya\u00a0 o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yeri bana sat\u0131p satm\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sordum. Y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fc neyle \u00f6deyece\u011fimi sordu. bende bor\u00e7 har\u00e7 alaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledim. \u0130\u015fte hayat\u0131m\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck hatas\u0131n\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Re\u015fat bey amca o g\u00fcnden sonra benim sat\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 takip etmi\u015f ve benden yer kiras\u0131 \u00f6dememi istemi\u015fti. \u00d6yle b\u00f6yle de\u011fil ayda binbe\u015fy\u00fcz lira. Bir m\u00fcddet \u00f6dedim daha sonra yan\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lmaya karar verdim.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Kimselere haber vermeden yazlar\u0131 <img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-447 alignleft\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"03062008228\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/03062008228-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"03062008228\" width=\"210\" height=\"158\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/03062008228-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/03062008228.jpg 650w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 210px) 100vw, 210px\" \/>\u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m Nihat beyin Karak\u00f6ydeki g\u00fcmr\u00fck b\u00fcrosunda \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u00f6nemlerde Ta\u015fk\u0131n \u00d6zg\u00fcnerginle tan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Nihat beyin istanbuldaki m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcyd\u00fc. Arada s\u0131rada sirkeci g\u00fcmr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde i\u015fi oldu\u011funda vapurla gidi\u015f geli\u015flerimizde rastla\u015f\u0131r sohpet ederdik. Yine \u00f6yle rastla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir g\u00fcn biraz sohpet ettik ordan burdan derken kendi b\u00fcrosunu a\u00e7mak istedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi\u011finde atlad\u0131m hemen a\u00e7al\u0131m diye. \u015ea\u015fk\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131, Sirkecide bir b\u00fcro a\u00e7mak ka\u00e7a mal oluyor biliyormusun dedi, bilmedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim. En az on ka\u011f\u0131t laz\u0131m bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bir araya getiremedim deyince Ta\u015fk\u0131m bende be\u015f bin lira var istersen ortak a\u00e7al\u0131m dedim demesine ha ha deyip g\u00fcld\u00fc. \u0130rfaniye \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda orloncunun yan\u0131nda b\u00f6yle bir paray\u0131 birikitiremeyece\u011fimi san\u0131yordu her halde. Sonunda Ta\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 ikna etmeyi ba\u015farm\u0131\u015f birlikte bir b\u00fcro a\u00e7maya ikna etmi\u015ftim. Eve geldi\u011fimde Re\u015fat amcan\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ayr\u0131laca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, Ta\u015fk\u0131nla beraber g\u00fcmr\u00fck komisyonculu\u011fu yapmak i\u00e7in b\u00fcro a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledi\u011fimde, Babam\u0131n ve Annemin suratlar\u0131n\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 hal bu g\u00fcn bile gitmez g\u00f6zlerimin \u00f6n\u00fcnden. Sonunda beni tekrar okula d\u00f6nd\u00fcremiyeceklerini anlayan Babam ve Annem \u00e7aresiz bir \u015fekilde Ta\u015fk\u0131nla ortak b\u00fcro a\u00e7mama r\u0131za g\u00f6stermi\u015flerdi. Hayat\u0131m biraz olsun daha renklenmi\u015fti sanki. Ayn\u0131 sene okula devams\u0131zl\u0131ktan s\u0131n\u0131fta kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.Yapabilece\u011fimin en iyisini yapm\u0131\u015f\u00a0 ailemi\u2018de ikna ederek a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yeni b\u00fcronun \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131na ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bile. Ailemi ikna etmemde Ta\u015fk\u0131n\u0131n Babam\u0131 raz\u0131 etmesindeki rol\u00fc \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc. Ankarada yap\u0131lan G\u00fcmr\u00fck Komisyoncular\u0131 Muayet memuru imtahanlar\u0131na beni haz\u0131rl\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc vermi\u015fti. Ta\u015fk\u0131nla i\u015fe beraber gidiyor beraber d\u00f6n\u00fcyorduk art\u0131k. Bindokuzy\u00fcz altm\u0131\u015fdokuz y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n temmuz ay\u0131nda\u00a0 Sirkecide\u2019ki b\u00fcromuzu a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. \u0130\u015flerimiz de gayet g\u00fczel gidiyordu, g\u00fcnde en az k\u0131rk beyanname kapat\u0131yorduk. Ak\u015famlar\u0131 i\u015f d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc Kadik\u00f6ydeki Birhanelerde bir iki bira i\u00e7meden evlerimize d\u00f6nmezdik. Gene \u00f6yle bir ak\u015fam \u00fcst\u00fc tesad\u00fcf eseri H\u00fclya\u2019y\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131m zarif kibar bir k\u0131zd\u0131 ve ben her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn kendimi daha iyi hissediyordum. Hayat\u0131m yeniden \u00e7ekilir olmu\u015ftu. H\u00fclya baz\u0131 ak\u015famlar kadik\u00f6yde vapur \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bizi bekliyor, baz\u0131 ak\u015famlar&#8217;da daha sonradan bize kat\u0131l\u0131yordu. O zamanlar bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc gibi cep telefonu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan g\u00fcnd\u00fczden telefonla\u015f\u0131r haberle\u015fir nerde oturaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131za veya bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131za\u00a0 karar verirdik. \u00dc\u00e7 kafadar birlikte vakit ge\u00e7iriyorduk. Bazen Ba\u011flarba\u015f\u0131ndaki Ahmet\u2019in Birhanesine gitti\u011fimizde, Ta\u015fk\u0131n\u2019\u0131n ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131 da bize kat\u0131l\u0131yordu. Yine \u00f6yle bir ak\u015fam \u00fcst\u00fc H\u00fclya ailesinin benimle tan\u0131\u015fmak istedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi\u011finde \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131ma ilk defa b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey geliyordu. Adadayken f\u00f6rt etti\u011fim k\u0131zlar\u0131n ailelerini zaten tan\u0131rd\u0131m bu durum bana tamamen <img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-463\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"taskin\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/taskin-175x300.jpg\" alt=\"taskin\" width=\"140\" height=\"240\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/taskin-175x300.jpg 175w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/taskin.jpg 250w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 140px) 100vw, 140px\" \/>yabanc\u0131yd\u0131. H\u00fclya her zamanki sakin tavr\u0131yla \u00e7ekinmememi beni tan\u0131rlarsa daha rahat edebilece\u011fimiz konusunda beni ikna etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u00d6yle bir uzun zaman diliminde falan da de\u011fildi. O hafta sonu yeme\u011fe davetliydim. Ta\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131yla birlikte gelmeleri konusunda ikna etmeliydim, yoksa yanl\u0131z ba\u015faramazd\u0131m. Cumartesi ak\u015fam\u0131 H\u00fclyalar\u0131n Bahariyedeki evlerinin kap\u0131s\u0131na geldi\u011fimizde kalbim yerinden f\u0131rlayacak gibi at\u0131yordu. Ta\u015fk\u0131n ve Ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131 beni makaraya alm\u0131\u015flar \u00e7oktan e\u011flencelerini bulmu\u015flard\u0131 sanki. Yemek boyunca heyecandan ellerimin titremesi belli olmas\u0131n diye a\u011fz\u0131ma bir lokma bir \u015fey almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imden ne kadar medeni bir aile diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. K\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n fl\u00f6rt etti\u011fi genci tan\u0131mak i\u00e7in evlerine yeme\u011fe davet etmi\u015flerdi. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n sonu geliyordu sanki. Bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn gen\u00e7li\u011fini\u00a0 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde toplumdaki de\u011fer yarg\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ne b\u00fcy\u00fck bir h\u0131zla de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini farkediyordum.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Neyse \u015fimdi kendinizi sorgulamay\u0131n! \u00f6yk\u00fcmden\u2019de kopmay\u0131n. Hayat\u0131m\u0131n bu d\u00f6neminde olaylar bir birini okadar h\u0131zl\u0131 takip etti\u2019ki Ta\u015fk\u0131nla birlikte Alemdar handa Elektrikli aletler satan bir ma\u011fza bile a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Bu arada Ta\u015fk\u0131n evlenmi\u015f yeni evine yerle\u015fmi\u015fti bile. Ben Allah\u0131n emri ile H\u00fclyay\u0131 ailesinden istetmi\u015f aile aras\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ni\u015fan merasimi ile ni\u015fanlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ger\u00e7i ailesi beni tan\u0131d\u0131ktan sonra pek \u00f6yle yasaklarla falan kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131yorduk.\u00a0 Saat ka\u00e7 olursa olsun muhakkak evine teslim etme \u015fart\u0131na bire bir uyuyordum. Bunun d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda nereye gtti\u011fimiz ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z konusunda tamamen \u00f6zg\u00fcr b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda hayat\u0131m da hi\u00e7 bir k\u0131z arkada\u015f\u0131mla buna e\u015fim de dahil bu kadar rahat gezdi\u011fimi, bu kadar rahat zaman ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimi ve eylendi\u011fimi hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. Askerli\u011fim kap\u0131ya dayanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Son yoklamam\u0131 da yapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bindokuzy\u00fcz yetmi\u015f birinci tertip askere gididi\u015fim kesinle\u015fmi\u015fdi, imkan\u0131m olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen tecil ettirmek i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 u\u011fra\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Konumuz \u00e7oktu bir an \u00f6nce askerli\u011fimi bitirip terhis olmal\u0131yd\u0131m. Askerden sonra i\u015fi nas\u0131l b\u00fcy\u00fctece\u011fimiz H\u00fclya ile evlilik planlar\u0131, nerede nas\u0131l oturaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z,\u00a0 nas\u0131l ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gibi. Ho\u015f Baba evinde oturmam\u0131z konusunda Babam ve annem biraz tutucuydu gelinin eve gelmesi konusunda baya\u011f\u0131 israrc\u0131yd\u0131lar. Evlilik hayali kuran gen\u00e7lerin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u00fcrde \u015feyler konu\u015fuyorduk art\u0131k. H\u00fclya \u00e7ok varl\u0131kl\u0131 bir ailenin k\u0131z\u0131 oldu\u011fundan Dedesi O\u011flunu ge\u00e7iremedi\u011fi i\u015flerinin ba\u015f\u0131na beni getirmek istiyordu. Zaten anla\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z en b\u00fcy\u00fck konumuzda buydu. Bu t\u00fcr konu\u015fmalar beni yeterince rahats\u0131z ediyordu. Bir \u015fekilde \u00a0askerli\u011fimin bitiminden sonra tart\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131za karar verdik sonunda. Askere teslim olmama kalan bir iki ay\u0131 huzur i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7irdik. Ni\u015fanl\u0131 olarak askere gitmenin berbat bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu k\u0131\u015flaya teslim oldu\u011fumda \u00f6\u011frendim. Ankaran\u0131n Etimesgut il\u00e7esinde tank\u00e7\u0131 alay\u0131na\u00a0 teslim oldum.<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-449 alignleft\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"peruk\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/peruk-212x300.jpg\" alt=\"peruk\" width=\"127\" height=\"180\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/peruk-212x300.jpg 212w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/peruk.jpg 314w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 127px) 100vw, 127px\" \/> \u00dc\u00e7 ay acemilik d\u00f6neminden sonra\u00a0 ayn\u0131 yerde ikinci tabur birinci b\u00f6l\u00fckte b\u00f6l\u00fck yaz\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 olarak kald\u0131m. Ankara k\u0131z\u0131laya izinli dahi olsan\u0131z er ve erba\u015flar\u0131n girmesi yasakt\u0131. Bu yasa\u011f\u0131n nedenini hi\u00e7 bir zaman anlayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bende \u00e7are t\u00fckenmez \u0130stanbula izinli gitti\u011fim bir hafta sonunda G\u00fcng\u00f6r a\u011fbimin kullanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 peruklardan bir tanesine el koydum. \u0130zin d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde beraberimde g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Kendimi Ankarada oturan bir akrabam\u0131n yan\u0131nda ya\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f gibi g\u00f6stererek evcil \u00e7\u0131kabilmek i\u00e7in izin ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131m. Art\u0131k cuma ak\u015fam\u0131ndan elimde\u00a0 evcil\u00a0 ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 ile alaydan \u00e7\u0131kabiliyordum. \u0130lk benzincide sivil k\u0131yafetlerimi giyip kafama takt\u0131\u011f\u0131m peruk ile inzibatlar\u0131n dikkatini \u00e7ekmeden ankaran\u0131n her yerine girip \u00e7\u0131kabiliyordum.\u00a0 Baz\u0131 hafta sonlar\u0131 istanbula \u00a0H\u00fclyay\u0131 g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in bile ka\u00e7\u0131yordum. Yirmi yedi ay\u0131 zar zor da olsa bitirdim. Yirmi d\u00f6rt ay askerlik \u00fc\u00e7 ay firarlardan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m cezalarla birlike yirmiyedi ay sonunda askerlik g\u00f6revimi \u00a0bitirmi\u015f eve gelmi\u015ftim. Valizimi b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi moda\u2018ya H\u00fclyaya s\u00fcrpriz yapmak i\u00e7in evden ko\u015far ad\u0131mlarla \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Annem arkamdan ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc de\u011fi\u015ftirseydin o\u011flum diye. Kadik\u00f6y alt\u0131 yoldan Bahariyeye \u00e7\u0131karken H\u00fclya bir gen\u00e7le kol kola alt\u0131yola do\u011fru geliyordu \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131m! bir ayakkab\u0131 ma\u011fzas\u0131na girdim g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015ferek \u00f6n\u00fcmden ge\u00e7tiler. Hata m\u0131 yap\u0131yoruz ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7a \u00e7ok mu g\u00fcnah i\u015fliyoruz yoksa sevaplar\u0131m\u0131z m\u0131 art\u0131yor. Ne dersiniz siz hangi taraftas\u0131n\u0131z? Akl\u0131ma ta\u015fk\u0131n geldi ben askerdeyken oda ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 e\u015finden.Yoluma devam ettim evin zilini \u00e7ald\u0131m m\u00fcsakbel kay\u0131nvaldem camdan bakt\u0131, aaaa ho\u015fgeldin \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131! Birinci kata \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m ni\u015fan y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7\u0131kartm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m elimdeydi. H\u00fclya\u2018da \u015fimdi gelir o\u011flum bir yere kadar gitti; g\u00fcld\u00fcm. Y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fc eline b\u0131rakt\u0131m d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ho\u015f\u00e7akal\u0131n dedim.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>H\u00fclya her seferinde Akl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na al derdi. Ke\u015fke onu en ba\u015f\u0131nda dinleseydim. Bir kere sevince baz\u0131 \u015feyleri es ge\u00e7iyor insan. Hep yaln\u0131z\u0131z diyoruz, hem yak\u0131n\u0131yoruz hayattan. Hep biz iyiyiz diyoruz di\u011ferlerine k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck yaparken bile. Neden mi b\u00f6yle konu\u015fuyorum ben de iyi bir insan\u0131m dedi\u011fim i\u00e7in. Ger\u00e7ekten\u2018de \u00f6yleyim, beni<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-453 alignright\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"etimesgut-1\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/etimesgut-1-300x291.jpg\" alt=\"etimesgut-1\" width=\"210\" height=\"204\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/etimesgut-1-300x291.jpg 300w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/etimesgut-1.jpg 650w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 210px) 100vw, 210px\" \/> tan\u0131mayanlar i\u00e7in o kadar \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum ki insanlar ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131 kendileri gibi bilir ya ben de \u00f6yleyim inan\u0131n. Masumum, masumsun, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck bilmem, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck bilmezsin, \u00e7\u0131kars\u0131z\u0131m \u00e7\u0131kars\u0131zs\u0131n hesab\u0131 anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z. Art\u0131k \u00f6n\u00fcme bakmal\u0131yd\u0131m ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131m hayat\u0131. \u00c7\u0131lg\u0131nca ya\u015fay\u0131p deliyi bile k\u0131skand\u0131racak t\u00fcrden. Korkmadan, cesurca, sonunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden. \u0130\u00e7inde ayr\u0131l\u0131k olmayan h\u00fcz\u00fcn olmayan g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 olmayan bir masal t\u00fcr\u00fc de\u011fildi benimki. Allahtan bu hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131m pek uzun s\u00fcrmedi.\u00a0 Sabahlar\u0131 Kadik\u00f6y Sirkeci hatt\u0131nda ki vapurla i\u015fe gidip gelen her kesin oturdu\u011fu yer hemen hemen bellidir. K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra devaml\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131mda arkada\u015flar\u0131 ile birlikte oturan kara g\u00f6zl\u00fc g\u00fczel bir\u00a0 bayan ilgimi \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. Belkide ilk defa hayat\u0131mda konu\u015fmaktan korkuyordum. Askerlik zaman\u0131ndaki yabanl\u0131\u011fa verdim. Bir ka\u00e7 kez takip ettim. G\u00f6ztepede oturuyordu. Konu\u015fup konu\u015fmama konusunda karars\u0131zd\u0131m, aksi bir cevaba haz\u0131r de\u011fildim san\u0131r\u0131m. Ne olduysa o ak\u015fam oldu her ak\u015fam g\u00f6ztepe dolmu\u015flar\u0131na binen bu g\u00fczel bayan moda dolmu\u015flar\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Ayn\u0131 dolmu\u015fa binememi\u015ftim ama arkas\u0131ndaki dolmu\u015fu tamam doldu diyerek devam ettirtmi\u015ftim. Elli liran\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc olarak ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m bozuk paralar Pardes\u00fcm\u00fcn cebinde y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e \u015fakur \u015fukur \u00f6t\u00fcyordu. Bahariye Moda kav\u015fa\u011f\u0131nda kolundan tuttum sanki k\u0131rk y\u0131ll\u0131k arkada\u015f\u0131m gibi bir cesaretle konu\u015fmam\u0131z gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yledim. Elindeki \u015femsiyesi \u00f6nce kald\u0131rd\u0131, az daha kafamda paralanabilirdi ama olmad\u0131. K\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda biraz konu\u015ftuk ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendim. Ad\u0131 Haticeydi iki \u00a0mart bindokuzy\u00fcz yetmi\u015fiki konu\u015ftu\u011fumuz ilk g\u00fcn. Bu benim i\u00e7in bir milat olmu\u015ftu. Daha sonralar\u0131 art\u0131k sabah ak\u015fam iskelede bulu\u015fup i\u015fe beraber gidip geliyorduk. \u0130lk bulu\u015fma ikinci bulu\u015fma derken. \u00c7\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m hadsafhadayd\u0131. Onu vapur iskelesinde beklerken farkl\u0131 duygular ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissediyordum. \u0130\u015f saatlerinde onu g\u00f6rebilmek i\u00e7in i\u015f yerine gidiyor b\u00fct\u00fcn mesai arkada\u015flar\u0131na \u00f6\u011flen yeme\u011fi bile \u0131smarl\u0131yordum. Bir \u015fekilde onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim bir an bile \u00e7ok zor geliyordu. Sonra hadi neden kim i\u00e7in bu \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131k diyordum. \u0130\u015fte ben buyum hayallerinden bile korkmayan hep korkutan bir adam\u0131m.<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-450 alignleft\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"hati\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/hati-199x300.jpg\" alt=\"hati\" width=\"159\" height=\"240\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/hati-199x300.jpg 199w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/hati.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 159px) 100vw, 159px\" \/><\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u0130ki mart\u2018ta tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131k, iki nisanda ni\u015fan, iki haziranda nikah ve onbe\u015f A\u011fustosta\u2019da d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc yapt\u0131k. Alt\u0131 ay i\u00e7inde evlenmi\u015ftik bile. Bakal\u0131m hayat bana daha neler \u00f6\u011fretecekti, daha nas\u0131l \u015fakalar yapacakt\u0131. Herkez bu kadar k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede geli\u015fen bu olaylar kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131. Bense kararl\u0131 onunla beraberken her t\u00fcrl\u00fc \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yapabilirdim. Ger\u00e7ekten nas\u0131l bir duyguydu? A\u015fk kelimesi bende sadece ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmek kavram\u0131n\u0131 olu\u015fturdu\u011fu i\u00e7in bu duygunun ne oldu\u011funu anlayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bildi\u011fim tek \u015fey her istedi\u011fimi ayn\u0131 anda onunda istemi\u015f olmas\u0131yd\u0131. G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde bu t\u00fcr ili\u015fkiyi ruh ikizi olarak adland\u0131r\u0131yorlar ne kadar do\u011frudur bilemiyorum. \u00a0Kuzenim \u015eenay ve ben ailenin iki delisi olarak an\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131k. Salacaktaki d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde bile misafirleri b\u0131rak\u0131p \u015fenay ve e\u015fi, taze gelin ve bendeniz taze damat ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131k d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden. \u015eenay\u0131n e\u015fi her ne kadar d\u00f6nmemiz i\u00e7in uyarm\u0131\u015f olsada, sabahlara kadar dola\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Moda\u2018dan Pendi\u011fe kadar. \u00a0Sabaha kar\u015f\u0131 eve geldi\u011fimizde herkezin surat\u0131 bir kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama biz kahkahalar at\u0131yor, g\u00fcle oynaya balay\u0131 i\u00e7in haz\u0131rl\u0131k yap\u0131yorduk. Day\u0131m\u0131n E\u015fi g\u00fcls\u00fcme yengem biraz mutas\u0131pt\u0131r. \u0130mam nikah\u0131 olmadan balay\u0131 olmaz dedi\u011finde g\u00fclmeyi kestik. Yengem imam nikah\u0131 olamdan do\u011facak \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131z pi\u00e7 olur o\u011flum deyince s\u00f6ylenecek s\u00f6z bitmi\u015fti. Hele G\u00fcls\u00fcme yengem s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsa yapacak hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey yoktu zaten. Do\u011facak \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n pi\u00e7 olmamas\u0131 i\u00e7in hoca nikah\u0131 yapaya raz\u0131 olmu\u015ftuk. \u00dcsk\u00fcdardaki evimizin alt kat\u0131nda nikah\u0131m\u0131z k\u0131y\u0131l\u0131rken benim \u015fahidim Ali Haticeninki \u015eenaysa orada sadece kahkaha tufan\u0131 var demektir. K\u0131y\u0131lan nikah\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n Tanr\u0131 kat\u0131ndaki yeri tart\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131r tabi hoca ne dediyse papa\u011fan gibi tekrarlad\u0131k. Hoca nikah\u0131m\u0131zda<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-456\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"Nikah\" src=\"http:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/Nikah-287x300.jpg\" alt=\"Nikah\" width=\"172\" height=\"180\" srcset=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/Nikah-287x300.jpg 287w, https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/04\/Nikah.jpg 458w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 172px) 100vw, 172px\" \/> k\u0131y\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 haz\u0131rl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z tamamd\u0131 \u00a0Av\u015fa adas\u0131na gitmek \u00fczere yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k. Ve emindik art\u0131k \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z pi\u00e7 olarak do\u011fm\u0131yacakt\u0131. Bir haftal\u0131\u011f\u0131na Av\u015fa adas\u0131na gitti\u011fimiz balay\u0131 bile Haticeyi benim \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131klar\u0131ma ortak etmeye yetmi\u015fti. \u0130ki hafta sonra d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck balay\u0131ndan. Sevi\u2018nin evlilikle bulu\u015ftu\u011fu o anda tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu muhte\u015fem duyguyu ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in, ya\u015fam masal\u0131ma unutulmas\u0131 imkans\u0131z an\u0131lar s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in, \u00a0ve muhte\u015fem iki evlat verdi\u011fi i\u00e7in e\u015fime sonsuz te\u015fekk\u00fcr ediyorum. Otuz yedi y\u0131l\u0131n sonunda bu g\u00fcn bile iyi ki seninle evlenmi\u015fim diyebiliyorsam, dillerde sak\u0131z olmu\u015f a\u015fk kelimesinin b\u00f6yle bir duyguyu anlatan kelime oldu\u011fana\u2018da inanm\u0131yorum. E\u015fimle birlikte ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z duygular ilk g\u00fcnden bu g\u00fcne kadar \u00a0hen\u00fcz bilinmeyen belkide kimselerin ya\u015fayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131, ad\u0131 konmam\u0131\u015f bir duygu selinin ta kendisiydi. Y\u0131llar sonra Halil Cibran&#8217;n\u0131n bindokuzy\u00fcz altm\u0131\u015fdokuz y\u0131l\u0131nda yazm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu Ermi\u015f adl\u0131 eserinde Evlilik \u00fczerine yazm\u0131\u015f olduklar\u0131n\u0131 okuyunca ne kadar da benze\u015fti\u011fimizin fark\u0131na vard\u0131m. Belkide bilmeden, ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 Halil Cibran&#8217;\u0131n \u00f6\u011f\u00fctlerinde ki gibi ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olmam\u0131z otuz yedi y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fimizin temel direklerini olu\u015fturmu\u015ftu. \u00a0 Bu k\u0131sa \u00f6yk\u00fcy\u00fc yazd\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu \u00a0g\u00fcnden sonra hayatta en b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m ba\u015farabilirsem \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131k yapmamam olacak.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Mehmet Tevfik \u00d6zkartal<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>02 Nisan 2011 Cumartesi\u00a0 23,15<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>EVL\u0130L\u0130K<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Yer y\u00fcz\u00fcne birlikte geldiniz, sonsuza dek birlikte ya\u015fayacaks\u0131n\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ak kanatlar\u0131, g\u00fcnlerinizi b\u00f6lene dek birlikte olacaks\u0131n\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>B\u0131rak\u0131n&#8217;da bunca beraaberli\u011fin, birlikteli\u011fin aras\u0131nda bo\u015fluklar olsun.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Ekme\u011finizi b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, ama ayn\u0131 lokmay\u0131 payla\u015fmaya kalkmay\u0131n.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u015eark\u0131 s\u00f6yleyin, dans edin, eylenin birlikte ama unutmadan,<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u0130kinizinde, ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 yanl\u0131z birer birey oldu\u011funu.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Ud&#8217;dan da\u011f\u0131lan m\u00fczik ayn\u0131d\u0131r ama na\u011fmeleri \u00e7\u0131karan teller ayr\u0131d\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Y\u00fcreklerinizi birbirine ba\u011flay\u0131n ama bir birinin bek\u00e7ili\u011fini yapmay\u0131n.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sadece ya\u015fam\u0131n elidir y\u00fcreklerinizi saklayacak olan.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Hep yan yana olun, ama bir birinize fazla sokulmay\u0131n,<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Mabetleri ta\u015f\u0131yan s\u00fctunlar da ayr\u0131 ay\u0131d\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>\u00c7\u00fcnki bir selvi ile bir me\u015fe\u00a0 birbirinin g\u00f6lgesinde yeti\u015fmez&#8230;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Halil Cibran 1969\u00a0 Ermi\u015f adl\u0131 eserinden al\u0131nt\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hepimizin bir \u00e7ok \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc vard\u0131r hayatta. Bir \u00e7o\u011fumuz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczden beri anlat\u0131lan ve ya masal kitaplar\u0131ndan okunan, mutlu sonla biten masallarla b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck.Hepimizin bir masal\u0131 vard\u0131r. Hayalini kurdu\u011fu ve b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e uzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc. Oysaki bu masallar\u0131`da, masal kahramanlar\u0131n\u0131 da yaratan biz insanlar de\u011filmiydik? &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/?p=326\">Okumaya devam et <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[5],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/326"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=326"}],"version-history":[{"count":32,"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/326\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3357,"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/326\/revisions\/3357"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=326"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=326"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eurovizyon.de\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=326"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}